Hon,

The doctor said today was the worst of all the 3 days you've been in the ICU. You had 6 seizures started from 4.30AM. They asked me whether you ever have history of asthma or allergic. I told them, when you were small yes, but teenager now. Lately sometimes you had breath difficulty but we thought it was because you are a chain smoker.

I asked the nurse what sort of seizure you had. She said "Teruk sangat lah kak. Kaki dia sampai terangkat dan hampir terduduk. Biasa orang yg kena sawan masa di sedated hanya gerak-gerakkan jari2. Tapi tak macam uncle ini."

Apparently, your brain has swollen. Oh Honey... they have to reduce the pressure in your brain by making a hole in your skull and insert a hose right into your brain drain system so the fluid can come out.

Honey, the time when I could spend with you today, I held your hand, massaged your feet, kiss your shoulder and hand. Did you feel it? Did you hear me? Did you feel when I brushed your hair, touched your head with as much as love that I have?

I told Alex, to take you to my place if you happen to heal. I will take care of you, Honey. Your kids can have your money. I don't want. I am not ready to lose you... I will take care of you even you're paralyzed. I can manage. I will..

I will, Hon. You are my husband and I WILL NEVER EVER ABANDON YOU!
posted by DHS