How can I fight this longing feeling, Hon.. If Allah could tell you how much I miss you... I miss you so much Honey....
posted by DHS

Hon,

I have so many things to tell. But I don't know which one to start. It's been 3 weeks since you've gone. Apa yang dulu saya takutkan, mulai terwujud satu persatu.

Alex menguasai semua uang dan barang kamu. What he gives me so far just pakaian2 buruk kamu (yang bagus dan mahal dia simpan), wang RM200 (itupun sisa dari uang tahlilan) dan uang RM50. Other than that, dia tak ada bagi. He doesnt even give anything to Albert, cancel his school, and doesnt do anything for Albert's school.

Hon,

Alex mau nikah. Alina tidak jadi convert ke Katolik. Dia akan tetap menjadi Hindu. Mereka akan menikah tahun ini juga. Kamu pasti tidak setuju kan? But what you can do now. For me personally, I dont mind apa agama dia, yang penting dia boleh buat Alex happy and take care of him, its enough for me.

Alina is a pretty girl. But if I hear from Alex, Alex cannot 'tame' her. She is too stubborn. Hope God protects Alex.

Hon,

I miss you so much.... what are you doing? Why are you not coming to my dream?
posted by DHS

Hon...

It's been a week since you've gone. I know you WILL NEVER read this. But let me this be a way for me to have a chit chat with you. Though I know you will never know..

I went to a Bazaar of Indonesian women in KL. I became the event host. They all were quite surprise that for someone who just lost her husband, I was just fine.

They do not know what I feel inside.. No one knows.
posted by DHS

Hon..

You finally gave up. Selesai sudah cerita cinta kita, Hon. You went to see God on the 1st of May 2010. You got what you wanted, Hon. Die with me next to you, with my hands holding yours.

Hon..

My happiness, is burried with you. There will be no more other great happiness of mine, for the rest of my life...

Thank you for the great 5 years spent with you :) I love you and I always will.

Your Wife,
Dian
posted by DHS