Hon,

When I went inside the ICU, the security guard told me there was one guest already inside. I walked fast to find out who. It was Azam. I felt so tired of explaining what has happened with you, because the more I explained it, the more I felt disappointed on the situation. I did not have the luxury to be there when you needed help in your house.

You were right, Azam was a bapuk. He cried, said he adored you very much and felt very sad this happened to you. I told him if you ever made mistake, please forgive you. He cried again.

Your body was swollen, Hon. I was very concerned. I told the nurse and she said "Orang sakit memang macam itu sebab dia tak bergerak kan. Tapi kita orang ada bagi dia ubat supaya dia kencing."

But Hon, it didnt look normal. I was afraid your kidney kena already. Visiting hour was over and the security guard kicked me out. I came back before 7pm, I ran cos I was afraid I didnt have a chance to see you. And I was shock, your body became lebih membengkak. I asked the nurse again, and still her answer was the same.

I was so worried, Hon.

Meanwhile, I just did a few works on the Genting assignments. I checked on Yinson, Arbae was on the night shift. I reminded him to write down everything necessary on the book. Ramesh told me that the cleaners salary was on the 1st. So I asked Alex to go up, but Ramesh said he wanted to go down on the 1st to buy food. I thought of giving him the money but I risau juga. Tengok lah nanti macam mana ya.

Btw hon, I dreamed you came to my bedroom when I was sleeping. You sat next to me, held my hand and your other hand touched my hair. You did not say anyting, but I felt that you were crying. I wasn't sure you were crying or not, I couldnt remember. Then you called my name, then I felt like IT WAS REALLY YOU shout in my ears. I woke up.

Hon... what are you feeling right now, Darling... I miss you so much.
posted by DHS