I SHOULD NOT be so afraid of you.
I SHOULD NOT be so afraid of you till I acted as if everything was just fine.
I SHOULD NOT push myself so hard to maintain your mood.
I SHOULD NOT try to hide that our monthly money was enough.
I SHOULD be thrifty.

I SHOULD be able to take the consequences that you would question if money wasn't enough for our monthly expenditure.
I SHOULD be able to push my self to write down every spending. So it could be a proof if you asked me why money wasn't enough every month.

Above of all, my only mistake was.. I SHOULD NOT BE AFRAID OF YOU.
posted by DHS