Hon,

I am sorry I wasn't able to come in the afternoon. I had some works that gave me RM200. Lumayan lah buat a few days since no bus to reach the hospital so I must take a cab and it's RM20 one way. I don't want to ask money from Alex. You know I never ask. Kepada siapapun, saya tak pernah meminta.

Ruban and Aunty Gloria came. They talked about past. About Julitha and the kids and the time those days. Again, I was like an outsider. Mano is a total torture. Everytime he came, all came from his mouth was only Julitha Julitha and Julitha. Only times when you were with her, when you two were still bercinta, ini itu.

I DONT WANT TO HEAR THAT.

Hon, your business in Aman is taken care of by Haji. Your assignment in Redza is by Kamaruddin and Ema the new Kerani. I'm helping them in doing a few things.

For your business in Amber Court, Alex and I are doing. Again, I do this not for me. I dont ask my share. I do this to help you. But I'm a bit sad since Alex is not doing anything yet, but he already declared that he's running your business. Again, I do this not for me. For you. I am just sad.... cos someone else takes credit on what Im doing.

When you wake up, what you know is Alex, your son, took care your business when you couldn't. And I am again... just a mere shadow...

I feel like.. should I leave all these to him? Should I just leave you to him? I think again.. and No. I wont leave you to him. I do this, not for him, not for you. But for myself. Because my love for you is genuine and sincere. I love you unconditionally.
posted by DHS